When I see you,
I notice you everyday but from far away. I know that you do not know about my existence but is that supposed to lessen my love for you? I see you smile and that makes my day. I see you with your boyfriend, but I just see your smile and think 'If she is happy,why shouldn't I be?". I am not a stalker, but a secret admirer. Your name shall forever be in my prayers because you will always be in my heart. I am just a shadow of a man hoping to be seen by you someday.....
How much do I love you? All I can say is, i'd happily be your enemy for life if it meant you being happier than being with me. I'd rather live with your hatred then see you unhappy,with me. Every time you cry,I die a little inside. I can kill for your smile and because of your tears. Your hatred for me can't change my love for you. Even as the most hated person in your life,i'll always have your back. Maybe that is the problem. Maybe the problem is that I want your smile and can do anything for it because I do love you and always will....I am not perfect, I am far from it, I make mistakes, I am a complete mess-up and so are you. Maybe, just maybe that is the reason I fell for you, the reason why I miss you so much, the reason why every morning I get up and wish I have you by my side, maybe that's why I wish it could all come back, maybe that's why whenever we were together I only wished the time could stop, maybe, just maybe that's why I need you....
You are gone now and all I have to live by are memories,our memories. I remember you holding me tight when sad. I remember you wiping your tears just because you knew I'd cry with you and that you couldnt see. I remember you holding me tight and hugging me for hours that never ended just so you knew I was only yours. I remember you hitting me for not taking care of myself and then getting angry. I remember the smile on your face after you hugged me,after you saw me. I remember....that's all I have to live by for you are gone,but our memories live on..:(
Morals and values are what I have based my life on ever since I came to know the meaning of these words! No matter what, I stuck by my rules, my morals and never, NEVER bent them for anything or anyone, except you! You came along and I thought "It's worth breaking my rules for her,worth every bit!", but you're gone now and once again I am back to being the man with Rules and Morals but this time, no one can make me bend those rules, not even you..
There are days when I look back, when I think about picking up my phone and calling you, when I wish things didn't end between us the way they did. There are times when I want to answer to the people who ask me,"Who was she?" but I can't because a part of me will always wish that we didn't end, that we would still be as happy as we were. I know that I have moved on, so have you, but a part of me will always be stuck there and wish that deep inside, you have a part like that in you too.
I am not responsible for this state of yours! I took your sins upon me to keep you safe! I prayed to lord that I get your share of pain, misery and ill-health and you get my share of happiness! I gave you more than I could, always. But now, I give up hope. You ridicule me for being the cause of your misery and neglect your bad choices. I was there for you when you were a 'nobody', I was there for you through thick and thin, through ups and downs, I was there for you when you treated me like old garbage in your new found fame, but, not anymore. I give up! If you ever noticed what you meant to me, you'll feel an empty space inside when I won't be there. I'm done.
I notice you everyday but from far away. I know that you do not know about my existence but is that supposed to lessen my love for you? I see you smile and that makes my day. I see you with your boyfriend, but I just see your smile and think 'If she is happy,why shouldn't I be?". I am not a stalker, but a secret admirer. Your name shall forever be in my prayers because you will always be in my heart. I am just a shadow of a man hoping to be seen by you someday.....
How much do I love you? All I can say is, i'd happily be your enemy for life if it meant you being happier than being with me. I'd rather live with your hatred then see you unhappy,with me. Every time you cry,I die a little inside. I can kill for your smile and because of your tears. Your hatred for me can't change my love for you. Even as the most hated person in your life,i'll always have your back. Maybe that is the problem. Maybe the problem is that I want your smile and can do anything for it because I do love you and always will....I am not perfect, I am far from it, I make mistakes, I am a complete mess-up and so are you. Maybe, just maybe that is the reason I fell for you, the reason why I miss you so much, the reason why every morning I get up and wish I have you by my side, maybe that's why I wish it could all come back, maybe that's why whenever we were together I only wished the time could stop, maybe, just maybe that's why I need you....
You are gone now and all I have to live by are memories,our memories. I remember you holding me tight when sad. I remember you wiping your tears just because you knew I'd cry with you and that you couldnt see. I remember you holding me tight and hugging me for hours that never ended just so you knew I was only yours. I remember you hitting me for not taking care of myself and then getting angry. I remember the smile on your face after you hugged me,after you saw me. I remember....that's all I have to live by for you are gone,but our memories live on..:(
Morals and values are what I have based my life on ever since I came to know the meaning of these words! No matter what, I stuck by my rules, my morals and never, NEVER bent them for anything or anyone, except you! You came along and I thought "It's worth breaking my rules for her,worth every bit!", but you're gone now and once again I am back to being the man with Rules and Morals but this time, no one can make me bend those rules, not even you..
There are days when I look back, when I think about picking up my phone and calling you, when I wish things didn't end between us the way they did. There are times when I want to answer to the people who ask me,"Who was she?" but I can't because a part of me will always wish that we didn't end, that we would still be as happy as we were. I know that I have moved on, so have you, but a part of me will always be stuck there and wish that deep inside, you have a part like that in you too.
I am not responsible for this state of yours! I took your sins upon me to keep you safe! I prayed to lord that I get your share of pain, misery and ill-health and you get my share of happiness! I gave you more than I could, always. But now, I give up hope. You ridicule me for being the cause of your misery and neglect your bad choices. I was there for you when you were a 'nobody', I was there for you through thick and thin, through ups and downs, I was there for you when you treated me like old garbage in your new found fame, but, not anymore. I give up! If you ever noticed what you meant to me, you'll feel an empty space inside when I won't be there. I'm done.
